Okay, so, I've never done this before so apologies if this just seems the ramblings of a 19 year old.
So, yeah I'm 19. Soon to be 20; a quarter of the way through my life if you're the sinical type. A lot has changed over the past year, I now live alone (by which I mean without parents, I share my flat with 4 others but for the most part there is 7 of us in the flat) but yeah, I'm a uni student, of sorts. I started my first year but like with most things I start I lost focus and ended up trying to run two career paths at the same time and as you can imagine neither planned out quite as I imagined. Right now I'm struggling against the tidal wave of revision that comes with trying to cram a years work of work into a one month period. I'm not sure if I'll pass and if I don't I've kind of accepted I have myself to blame for it.
Other than university troubles I have the same trials and tribulations that most people my age go through, especially at uni, money worries, not being quite content with how I look (although I am working on that and have managed to lose half a stone since I've decided to work on a change!). The love life of the man on the moon, in the way that I can look down and see every couple and single person yet can't quite seem to mange to make sense of it all for myself. The fact that right now if I were to disappear I wonder if I'd make any impact, I mean obviously family and friends would notice, but history has shown us some people have changed the world by 20, maybe I'm not pulling my weight in the grand scheme of things?
I guess really though I'm not in that bad of a position although I challenge you to find many people that realise how lucky they are without the golden gift of hindsight.
Right now I'm just going to focus on passing my exams, moving into my new house in september with some very good friends and enjoying my summer.
I'm not sure if anyone will ever read this, even if they did I'm not sure it would have any impact on them, but if you are out there looking in, I hope you enjoyed reading about my very average life!
For now, enjoy your day.
